When the cashier asked me what shoes I want, I was still thinking things through. The SALE sign was already there and I knew it was the moment. I was so torn and tired of thinking things through I considered dropping both of them and just walk away. I wasn't happy at all - which was bizarre. Other people would go gaga over the fact that they have 2 good - no, GREAT - offers. They would even probably take their time and see which shoe can give them the best deal. But not me. It was stressful and emotionally draining.It wasn't worth it.
By Wednesday, I finally made my decision. I was nervous when I came to work that day. But it was a good kind of nervousness - like a giddy kid about to tell her parents she's graduating with honors. It's very rare I feel like that. I was excited - so I knew I made the right decision. The waiting game was finally over. Well, for me anyway. I enjoyed the 3 hours I had to let my boss wait for my decision. And when I finally told him, hehehe, the reaction I got was priceless. Not to mention that the other bosses were happy as well.
It's a different story with the other team. I'm not sure though what kind of story, but it's definitely not a happy one.
This whole experience reminded me why I bothered with this job for nearly 4 years. And now I know what I REALLY want from it. It may sound as a selfish wish for some, but in reality, it's something we all want. It's a long way ahead, but I'm willing to risk it.
And the challenges now begin.
