The Shoe Sale - Final

When the cashier asked me what shoes I want, I was still thinking things through. The SALE sign was already there and I knew it was the moment. I was so torn and tired of thinking things through I considered dropping both of them and just walk away. I wasn't happy at all - which was bizarre. Other people would go gaga over the fact that they have 2 good - no, GREAT - offers. They would even probably take their time and see which shoe can give them the best deal. But not me. It was stressful and emotionally draining.

It wasn't worth it.

By Wednesday, I finally made my decision. I was nervous when I came to work that day. But it was a good kind of nervousness - like a giddy kid about to tell her parents she's graduating with honors. It's very rare I feel like that. I was excited - so I knew I made the right decision. The waiting game was finally over. Well, for me anyway. I enjoyed the 3 hours I had to let my boss wait for my decision. And when I finally told him, hehehe, the reaction I got was priceless. Not to mention that the other bosses were happy as well.

It's a different story with the other team. I'm not sure though what kind of story, but it's definitely not a happy one.

This whole experience reminded me why I bothered with this job for nearly 4 years. And now I know what I REALLY want from it. It may sound as a selfish wish for some, but in reality, it's something we all want. It's a long way ahead, but I'm willing to risk it.

And the challenges now begin.

The Shoe Sale

I came to a point in my career where I have to think of where I want to go. I love where I am right now and I'll be a customer service rep for 4 years this coming May 8. If that wasn't enough of a proof that I love my job, I don't know what will. But with everything going on with our group, there was an opportunity I wanted to try out. I didn't decide right away that I wanted to take it, so I needed a little push. It was a scary first step and I delayed it for a week, but when I finally decided to submit that form, I knew there was no backing out. I didn't expect it to move this fast though. I submitted my form on a Tuesday and had my first interview last Friday. It went very well as far as I can remember. The manager was able to lay out to me what she envisions for her team and I suddenly realized I wanted to be a part of it. The job itself, as described to me, was scary and nerve-wrecking, but all of us experience that. After the talk, I knew whatever I was looking for was with them. It may sound harsh and unfair, but I finally found what I was looking for. There was only one other time I felt that unexplainable ease and it was when I took the job in Sykes. As I mentioned before, that wasn't the job I wanted, but that female intuition I got pushed me to pursue the job offer and I never regretted it.

Deciding my next career move is like choosing what shoe I will buy. Either I buy the flats for comfort, or the pumps for statement. I can never choose both. I always find myself in a mess if I try to meet both functions half-way. It's always one or the other. I can never compromise. If I choose slippers just so the flats and the pumps won't feel bad if I chose one over the other, I end up miserable and the pumps and the flats will abandon me to be bought by someone else.



And now, I'm nearing the cashier's desk. I have the pumps on my left hand and the flats on my right. No decision yet. I still need that deciding factor and it's still not available for the regular consumer. No SALE sign up yet. I need the right constitution and state of mind or else, I'll mess up big time. And walking with the wrong pair of shoes is always a pain.